This photo makes me laugh EVERYTIME I look at it. My baby looks like a little Guido, "How you doin'?"
I miss having a baby in the family.
The other day, this man I know, tried to convince me that syatic nerve problems are as painful as giving birth. I laughed. Unsympathetically, I told him, "Try giving birth WHILE you're having syatic nerve problems!" (Yeah. That was me. Tough girl. Suffering with my syatic nerve and then giving birth NATURALLY. Once. I only did that once. And I can't brag and say I did it by choice.) I had this flashback, this beautiful flashback. And although the pain was like nothing that can be described, I would go back. I would go right back to that beautiful moment.
Why, crazy woman? Why would you even want to go there? Back to those depths of pain hell? Because ( looking back, of course!) those moments of child birth were the sweetest most gratifying moments of my life!
It's interesting. Life. There are stages. Maybe when you are in a particular stage, you're not enjoying it all that much or maybe wish you weren't even in it. But it's when you HAVE to move on to the next...it can be tough. I don't like walking away from this childbearing stage. It's pretty much defined me for the last 20 years. And now, when almost strangers curiously ask me if I'm going to have any more children, I have to tell them, "No, I'm done." But I say it sadly. And then they think I am insane. You see, I have found in this worldly world, I am considered by MANY people a freak. Or that's how their reactions sometimes make me feel when they realize how many children I have. If they only knew... I'd have twenty kids if I could!